“Rape Trauma Syndrome (RTS) is the medical term given to the response that most survivors have to rape. It is very important to note that RTS is the natural response of a psychologically healthy person to the trauma of rape so these symptoms do not constitute a mental disorder or illness.”
Immediately after a rape you become cold, disorientated, you may even tremble
In my case, I was stuck in my predators home on both occasions.
sophomore year: when someone at a young age because a victim of rape the emotional impact it causes are horrendous. Sleep disturbances. Eating disturbances.
I wasn’t considered a victim of rape my sophomore year.
Because I laid down and took it.
You are a 15 year old. You are somewhere your parents don’t know where you are. Your phone is dying and you are in a room with a 19 year old. He is telling you stories of his past that included anger issues and abusive tendencies. You could see why I was scared. Do what he wants or get beat, and I didn’t know if he was going to stop if he started to hit me. You see he wasn’t the first girl he had done it too. But I had not known that when I got in the car with him.
Behavioural symptoms: expresses or feels that are generally visible to others. Including, lifestyle changes and changes in relationships.
Crying more than usual
Avoiding anything that reminds the survivor of the rape: such as a place the attacker worked
Becoming easily upset by small things
Relationship problems: family and friends
Loss of interest in sex or becoming overactive in sex
Changes in appearance
Increased substance abuse
Suicide attempts, self- mutilation
Though my sophomore year expierence didn’t do much damage or so I had thought at the time my junior year did.
I was with my best friend, someone I could trust, or so I thought. Him and his friend picked me up from my house and taken me to my friends friends house. We started game of pool and began to drink. As the night became later I had slowly became intoxicated and had to be carried up the stairs. We were in the living room and playing guitar hero. They were trying to get me to go into the hot tub. I had no bikini so they wanted me to go in with my bra and underwear. I refused and asked to go lay down for I wasn’t feeling to good. My friend’s friend who we shall call Adam, carried me into this room and laid me down. Adam asked me if I wanted him to leave me alone and I said yes. I heard him walk towards the door and shut it. I had figured he had left. Sadly he had not left. He climbed into bed and proceeded to undress me. When he began to have sex with me he repeatedly asked me, “why are you not moving?” “why are you crying?” “why are you not saying anything?” This time I did not take it to the police.
The other day I saw Adam, he works at my mom and I’s favorite restaurant. I had a panic attack.
Psychological symptoms: are much less visible and can be completely hidden. Generally referring to the inner thoughts and emotions.
Fear and anxiety
Self-blame and guilt
Feeling no control of your life
Lowering of self esteem
Constantly thinking about the rape
Having flashbacks to the rape
Though there are a million other symptoms in all aspects of rape these were the ones I felt the most. Physical, Behavioral, and psychological.
My rape does not define me but it has and it didn’t destroy a huge part of me.
” I am a victim of Rape, and no, I did not provoke it, and no, I did not ask for it.”